PA Outing

A wonderful Hari Raya Holiday
This is the 1st time I go for camping at Bentong
I have learn to independent when I was outside
Have wonderful holiday with friends especially Poh Ling, Seng Tat and also Mun Kin
Is great to get to know new friends
They are very friendly
Some I don’t even know them
This is the camp from new life which is called PA Outing
Actually I went to this outing there is a reason
God knows it.. I dunno what to say

Something to believe in

Finally, I have settled with the person
I really hope he can understand me
Hope that he won’t get upset or this and that
Every time, only got his talk
Even that day also I say something sure he say something
Really hurt my feeling
But never mind whatever it is I have done my part
God will understand me
No matter those people don’t understand
I am OK with it
Because I know God understand
God is with me always
I don’t think is important that he listen a not
I have done the right thing I guess

Now, have to concentrate on the semester 3 final exam is on Tuesday
My OKSI is on Wednesday
I pray that God will guide me through with everything
I just have to trust him and God will do the rest
I have done my reading
Help me to remember it Lord, wisdom, knowledge to do it
In a miracle way
Believe and ask for God Helps and seek for him

I have been through all this
Why I can’t everybody can
Something to believe in.. (God)
How to plan for the mission with Poh Ling
I know she is so excited and worry about it
Now I guess she have to start from Adam..
I just have to be with her.
Lord, show me the way how to deal with it
Thx Lord for everything..

Serve the Lord

After have a chat with a leader from new life church

I decide to have a partner which the person is Poh Ling

I want everything to go smoothly

Hope everything will be fine

Guide us through it

I think I have told Joshua but must face to face to speak

Need some advice on it

We are God children no matter where the people choose is ok

Anyway I am going serve both sides

God please give me the strength

Hope that I’m going to the right track

Lead me through

Now I must a good schedule of the things I need to plan

I hope I don’t fall off just like that

I have to build up confident, life, strength and more

I want to be fire on God

I am depending on You

What Happen??

Just wan to share my feeling since I have enough sleep I guess
Now is already 4am in the morning..
Why I wake up so early having headache now also
If I sleep some more I’m like a pig

Father Lord, I have an experience of the feeling fainting
On the 29 aug I was in genting for the camp DARE TO MOVE…
I only slept for 3 hours I guess
Then I wake up to study and whole day never sleep
After when at night service I was fainted during the service
The feeling was like feeling drizzle, seeing stars all around
After that, I really dunno what happen
By the time I wake im already on the sofa
Two church member carry
I have open my eyes during I fainted and
I know my feet was not on the floor
I couldn’t dare to walk I couldn’t balance myself at all
They decide to carry to my dorm
Since than I feel so sick having so much problem in my life

After camp, means was on the 1 sept I was in college
And I have so called chest pain
I feel that I have something press on the chest couldn’t breath nicely
Slowly I do deep breathing exercise only better a bit
So on the 3 sept was on thurday
I have pain near my scapula and she massage for me
Then I feel a bit hard to breath
So I call seng tat can we just go and eat and I go back but he insist me to go to church
So I went but I was having difficulty so I slept there

I did not talk to jia chuen since Wednesday
That morning is the last talk I talk to him
He is so not matured sometimes
I cannot accept it already
I think I have enough patience with him

On Friday I went my own cell group
I was having back pain but everything was fine at that time
Was talking to my leader
But when they started to worship
I feel very uncomfortable
Hard to breath (SOB) shortness of breath
Then I message Poh Ling
She help to breath nicely
And even she call Seng Tat to pick me up from CG
Then they decide to send me to Hospital (UM)
Everything was ok
Pulse rate was a bit high
The x-ray was ok
Everything was ok just hard to breath
Is so called hyperventilation
The cause is Stress and something trying to stop me
To fulfill my mission
This is what my mum told me
I guess so
Emily calls me and asks how check up
Then I call Joshua to tell him cos he is my leader
He didn’t know anything
Why u didn’t tell me
I know if like that they will also send me to hospital
But is ok.. Poh Ling will take care of it

Thanks to everyone who cares for me
My life in hostel and at home the same I just can’t stand it
Here and there got argument
They only think about themselves
Who think about me
Making problem only
Lead me to a conclusion of success
Nobody thinks about me..
Hope I’m not going for depression