A wonderful Hari Raya Holiday This is the 1st time I go for camping at Bentong I have learn to independent when I was outside Have wonderful holiday with friends especially Poh Ling, Seng Tat and also Mun Kin Is great to get to know new friends They are very friendly Some I don’t even know them This is the camp from new life which is called PA Outing Actually I went to this outing there is a reason God knows it.. I dunno what to say
Finally, I have settled with the person I really hope he can understand me Hope that he won’t get upset or this and that Every time, only got his talk Even that day also I say something sure he say something Really hurt my feeling But never mind whatever it is I have done my part God will understand me No matter those people don’t understand I am OK with it Because I know God understand God is with me always I don’t think is important that he listen a not I have done the right thing I guess
Now, have to concentrate on the semester 3 final exam is on Tuesday My OKSI is on Wednesday I pray that God will guide me through with everything I just have to trust him and God will do the rest I have done my reading Help me to remember it Lord, wisdom, knowledge to do it In a miracle way Believe and ask for God Helps and seek for him
I have been through all this Why I can’t everybody can Something to believe in.. (God) How to plan for the mission with Poh Ling I know she is so excited and worry about it Now I guess she have to start from Adam.. I just have to be with her. Lord, show me the way how to deal with it Thx Lord for everything..
Just wan to share my feeling since I have enough sleep I guess Now is already 4am in the morning.. Why I wake up so early having headache now also If I sleep some more I’m like a pig
Father Lord, I have an experience of the feeling fainting On the 29 aug I was in genting for the camp DARE TO MOVE… I only slept for 3 hours I guess Then I wake up to study and whole day never sleep After when at night service I was fainted during the service The feeling was like feeling drizzle, seeing stars all around After that, I really dunno what happen By the time I wake im already on the sofa Two church member carry I have open my eyes during I fainted and I know my feet was not on the floor I couldn’t dare to walk I couldn’t balance myself at all They decide to carry to my dorm Since than I feel so sick having so much problem in my life
After camp, means was on the 1 sept I was in college And I have so called chest pain I feel that I have something press on the chest couldn’t breath nicely Slowly I do deep breathing exercise only better a bit So on the 3 sept was on thurday I have pain near my scapula and she massage for me Then I feel a bit hard to breath So I call seng tat can we just go and eat and I go back but he insist me to go to church So I went but I was having difficulty so I slept there
I did not talk to jia chuen since Wednesday That morning is the last talk I talk to him He is so not matured sometimes I cannot accept it already I think I have enough patience with him
On Friday I went my own cell group I was having back pain but everything was fine at that time Was talking to my leader But when they started to worship I feel very uncomfortable Hard to breath (SOB) shortness of breath Then I message Poh Ling She help to breath nicely And even she call Seng Tat to pick me up from CG Then they decide to send me to Hospital (UM) Everything was ok Pulse rate was a bit high The x-ray was ok Everything was ok just hard to breath Is so called hyperventilation The cause is Stress and something trying to stop me To fulfill my mission This is what my mum told me I guess so Emily calls me and asks how check up Then I call Joshua to tell him cos he is my leader He didn’t know anything Why u didn’t tell me I know if like that they will also send me to hospital But is ok.. Poh Ling will take care of it
Thanks to everyone who cares for me My life in hostel and at home the same I just can’t stand it Here and there got argument They only think about themselves Who think about me Making problem only Lead me to a conclusion of success Nobody thinks about me.. Hope I’m not going for depression
Proverbs 29:25 – 26 It is dangerous to be concerned with what other think of you, but if you trust the Lord, you are safe. Everybody wants the good will if the ruler, but only from the Lord can you get justice.
What I think this verse really speak to me. It is true about that. Think about this verse and is very meaningful to me
After exam was super free Was sick whole week What a week of sick Hopefully can see Doctor today What is life now Lean me through the way in miracle Guide each of my friends to goods of way Finally I am able to write my blog Such a long time didn’t write my blog There are many things happen in my life I really I dunno where to start
My hostel Well, I trying my best to solve the problem Whatever they want to do let it be I’m just too tired to think and help them It seen to make so much problem of it My tears have been running out Ever since I come in to this college Every time I try to help them to solve and They seen to make problem every time How come they are not tired
There is one Christian They way she act really not like Christian Whatever I just don’t want care She is like find me stupid When there is something she wants She will come to u If not she don’t even care for you She only think about her problem So selfish Human are seriously not perfect at all But some how I just can’t stand it No matter how many times I help her She doesn’t care but only herself What I know now. God knows everything God will help her in everything Thanks Lord
I am truly very upset about that But I always remember to forgive others And God will forgive you rite It is really true Thanks god I still have some outside friends who care for me Thanks Lord for those who care for me. This is not end of the world yet
Now I am worried for my college There are people in college got H1N1 Protect us Lord to go through all this. I trust in you Lord In everything you are there for me
Oh Dear Father Lord I was really very down that day I am totally very useless that I feel However, u have not given up on me You have given me so much hope U send people to build me up I thank you Lord for everything I realize that you are so amazing to me
That day I friend have a problem between her old religion Therefore u have show her the way Though that I have some problem between our friend And yet I have forgive him Now is the time there have to settle it themselves I can only do things till here Others I can only depend on you I am so glad you are always there for me
Oh Lord, I remember that you have given me break through For this week and so many times I know that God u have show me that u really care for me You have show me so much about life You have teach me so much I think is really miracle that you guide me through everything
Now Lord I have to depend on you on my exam I am working hard on it I have done my best and the rest I leave it to u Lord I know that you will be there for me
Help me Lord Give me the strength to go through all this Without you what is life all about But with you life so interesting in me I wan to thank you Lord for everything
Sometimes I really dun understand the senior They dun like to work with me But ended up yesterday was the last day with them One of them seen to enjoy working with me Is ok that show that how God work through me I am so thankful to u Lord. I love you Lord so much I have gain my challenger and I know there is more Thank you Lord Amen
Oh father Lord, thank you so much for letting me share to my fren I know that I am not the one to bring her to Christ However u are the one who lead me to I am glad she is able to accept u as Lord and savior Oh Lord lead her to a new life Change everything to be better for her I know there will be challenger coming to her Lord to show her the way and guide her in everyway Take care of her Lord
She haven’t tell her parents about it Continue to guide with the right time for her to speak In a miracle way to bring her family to Christ It is totally not the easy way I am willing to do my best to help her Dear Lord lead me and her to do what we should do
Dear Lord, help my dear fren mun kin to understand what is Jesus all about I believe one day he is able to accept u as Lord and savior Lead him and help him to understand u more Lord Even he have gone to church for two years Continue to show him more Thank you Lord for everything Things become more and more better in Christian walk I have faith in You Lord
Father please forgive my sin I am a sinner Even I am a Christian a long time I am so not sure where I am going to be Therefore I want to commit myself to you Help me to do what I should do Especially when I was in hostel Lead me to show how a Christian should be Control my temper Lord I know sometimes people cannot be trusted so much But Lord please lead me to let them believe in me Let them ask me more about Jesus Lord It seen some of them got some problem but I dunno how should start Thanks You Lord
Even sometimes I am a bit stressful Lord please help me calm down Show in a beautiful to lead me through this course Sometimes I just dunno what to do I believe and have faith that I have to finish this course Lord I am sure you know why Because of u Lord I am doing this studies for u To be a ble to lead myself to be a missionary I guess now is the time for me to bring myself up I know that God really love each one of us in a different way Thank you Lord for everything
Finally I am back to my house in puchong. I am having great time in training and my birthday on the 21 May at the age of 22 years old. I feel so old wei..
Anyway, I just to make myself clear about this year for my birthday wish.
Some people say we should not say it out until it works.
I don’t mind about it. This is to make myself clear.
I must change my attitude to be a better person.
I want to be a good student in college
I want to be the best in college.
To show the people who look down on me.
Thank you father lord to be there to listen to me always.
Problem is always there and we have to solve it with a professional way.
As a good nurse..
When I tell my friend about that and he say wah esthery have grown up already.
I was like oh not all the while like that meh. Maybe I think
My first week of posting in PKKN is mostly for patient who have leprosy, tuberculosis and also HIV. I was in charge to take care of patient who has leprosy which is already negative which not spread already. The patient there are some which don’t have legs and hands, some even got psychology problem like mental. Really all kinds of things we see in the place. Some of them, which don’t have legs and hands, they even help each other to wash their plates, bowls and cups. They are really nice and helping each other and also they do fight and scold patient not nurse because some of them really a bit of problem like psychology.
In this place, I learn something is a reminder to me. They have no legs and hand and yet still they can live their life for so many years already more then 50 to 60 years. Some of them help to cook dishes when they feel like to cook. They really felt like home. I learn that sometimes we have problem to us like a big problem but we couldn’t help it like we so tension with it. However, imagine for these patients who have no hands and legs because of nerve did not flow well and cause damage already. To what I think is that their problem is bigger then us because is their whole life. Ours was only can settle or leave it just as is. I am seriously very proud of them. Is great that we know there are people who are like and yet they can take care of themselves. Now generation have change is different then before.
My second week on the 1st week of posting. Oh lord, today is not my day. I am supposed to work at afternoon but suddenly early in the morning, the people message me at 7:30am expect me to go now. Four of us, have to call here and there to know which ward, which CI, which place really make my day. I really don’t understand why they have to give information last minute on the doe.go late and come back early, there are nice senior that we join. Thanks Lord for everything no matter I still love you muax..
Oh dear Lord What will happen to me when posting I wan everything to go through perfectly In a miracle way I always believe in the Lord Nurses day will be celebrate on the 20th May So sad Saturday got posting Wan everything to be great for next week
Worship
Worship is an emotional response Directed toward God Involving the whole body Environment Because of his holiness and his grace
Who do you worship? How do you worship? Where do you worship? Do you worship God other then cg or church? To let u think about it
This is our day off for early celebration birthday Is our wonderful day We really enjoy ourselves At last we brought quite a lot of things hehe Life is worship Worship is very important It is deep in our heart to worship the Lord for true heart True worship Great worship deep in our heart
To a lovely mother in my life Described my mum She is a wonderful mum in my life She is the most beautiful person in this world
No matter how things goes wrong She is still able to hang in there This is because god is with her She believe God can make miracle happen
Sometime I am so impress by her I wonder can be like my mum She is a very understanding person She is able to control her temper
In my life, I haven’t seen a person Which is almost as perfect as she is This is because God work through her God have shown her so amazingly
We want to say sorry to our mother Due to sometimes we in wrong Sometimes we didn’t respect and angry with her We want to take this opportunity to say SORRY
We also want to take this opportunity say THANK YOU For the things she have done for us Because of both us, she have suffer so much She have made our life so wonderful
We love you so much Sometimes we don’t really show However in our heart You are wonderful and beautiful like an ANGEL
Oh Lord I wonder how long I can stand this friend I try my very best to be a good friend He just like to argue with people My friend also feel the same I’m so tired to entertain him already He like to make his own choice for people I hope Lord please guide me to be more patient I dun no what else can I do He only wanna follow up this and that I know he love God so much but also got timing To him Jesus is coming Yes , I know but when people cannot accept We cannot force people We only can try our best and God will do the rest Why can’t he just understand this point I just don’t know what is gone into him He think is easy to get a non-christian to Christian For me, it is also not easy to ask them to go There is always the timing to do things I am going to be Crazy but his attitude Oh Lord, what should I do No matter what I tell him to be patient need to wait And yet he say no no no.. Jesus is coming, he told me Yes, but cannot force people ok ok ok.. How to tell him Nothing is easy unless God made it to be
I wanna cry Lord I have my own problem My studies and my result not in good shaped However this guy keep disturbing me I think I am going into depression soon I don’t want things to be happen like Tung Shin I don’t want Lord This far I have gone through Please do lead me to the end Lord I try my best to have happy day And yet it seen cannot be help I can only depend on u Lord
Today, I finally spend sometime to do some notes for two subject There is a guy ask me to be his girlfriend and he is waiting for the answer However, we know each other for maybe hmm since form 1 till now He is younger then one year but I really dun have the feeling for it How am I suppose to tell him the answer Every time, we meet also we argue one Even Yesterday also he call me and also we argue He ask me out to watch movie with him alone How can? To me I cannot do it. I am scare I dun wan to give him hope I am really just think he is just a friend to me It is very difficult for to tell him Oh dear Lord, I pray that soon my prince will come to me I wan the prince which I can love him and also he love me For now, I dun wan to think about relationship between girl and boy I wan my future to be success first Even I dun have also I am ok with it. Ya I am desperate but let it be my dream I wan to fulfill my future and be a missionary Others let God think for me I wan some one to come with me to the missionary field (nurse and doctor) In my mind, I dun wan doctor to be my future dream Because due to some thing that I have seen which I think dun need to be What is in my mind now? Why when I tell people about my problem can’t they just understand me? Oh Lord for me is very difficult to find a person to listen to my problem. I also dunno why I got some much problem In this world, there are things happen just like that There is always a reason as I told myself to remember I just have to depend On God
Happy Labour Day Is the day of everybody having holiday There is where the family get together Spend the time together
Father, I want to have a friend which is not a christian Yesterday my friend and I bring her to CG at New life Church I really hope that one day she will be able to accept what is Jesus all about Is great to join them for CG I found that is a bit different However I would is really comfortable with that Pray that gives her the confident to accept Jesus as saviour In Jesus Name Amen
Father, I really have no idea for this semester 2. I am afraid but now I have trust in the Lord All I have to do is do my best in everything God will do the rest as always God have mention it many times I have to keep repeating to myself as a reminder Help me lord. I will always remember this verse John 14:1 Do not let ur heart be in trouble Trust in the lord and also believe in Jesus.. Thanks Lord..
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO JOAN Really missing her so much Enjoy working with her hehe.. Muaxx..
I just wan to say thank you You have made my life meaningful You always made my day such as wonderful as it was You have done so much in my life
No matter what I always depend on you without fail You have show me the way You are always there You are the one who encourage me
I just can’t believe it However you have show me the way You make miracle You have make things real to me
When I feel down You are there to show me A cheerful world you have shown me You make my life unforgettable
When I loss hope You have shown me hope You make a way for me You still have confident in me
When I feel sad You are there to be my father You are forever mine You are beside me to listen to my tear
I wonder that am I important to you To him, everybody is special He created me and everyone else There is specialty in my life
When I have problem He makes a way for me He asked me to trust in him I do my best and he do the rest
When I feel happy I am glad to share it with him I want to share with everyone else through my testimony I want share and let people know that my life is different
I know he cares for me He knows what is best for me He wants me to be a different person He is everything to me
He is so grateful He so understands He is so wonderful He is so lovely
When I asked for help You are there You are willing to listen You answered
I just want to say thank you I just don’t know what else can I do I just want to be your best daughter I just want to be pure as you are
I love you Lord, I am to love you To worship u with all my heart
Thanks you Lord. U are always there to make my day U lean me through in a miracle way U always there when I have trouble U r everything to me I put my trust in u always
Thank you For always being there with me Whatever I done, you are still there to comfort me You still forgive me I am so glad that you are my Lord
Sometimes, I wonder why He is so wonderful He is very understanding He is so great then anything in my life Sometimes I just don’t understand However, he is the one who make situation for me to understand
Oh this week holiday, I felt that I am very relieved from the exam. I don’t feel so stress anymore. I always trust in the Lord. I believe he will make way for me whatever it is. I feel that whatever I am going through, he is there to encourage me but sometimes is myself that don’t have confident. I am so blessed by the Lord. The only thing I can do is to fulfill the dream I always wanted to be.
In my life I always wonder why All things happen to me
There is always a problem for me There is always something for me to solve There is always life with difficulty There is always a person for me to think There is always glory There is always faith in me There is always someone help me out in everything There is Holy Spirit in me It is you Lord
I wonder when will be my time I just to be myself one day I want to do something for him How I am going to do it
Before my final exam sem 1 My final exam during the week
My Colleagues
Special me
My friend
Me and Charen (she is my only Christian Friend in College and also Housemate)
Me and Leela
My Colleagues
This is Group D (3/2008B) During Practical for the last day
In this semester 1, I have learned a lot even though I have study before assistance nurse. I always tell myself that I don’t want same things happen as before. I have told my leader and he told normally it would not happen again. I choose to trust him before I believe that God would not want me to have the same thing happen because he wants me to do what is best.
I have met a lot of people in hospital and I know that I can make a different. In hospital, I feel so use to it like my second home. I am able to encourage patient and they are so friendly. Sometimes, I feel that they are just like my family. In this world, everyone is the same just that how are you going to control your attitude. To me, patients are just like my family. I am willing to listen to their needs. Whoever wants to have a talk with me, I am willing to listen. I can give opinion when they need it.
In hospital, I meet a lot of my friends where last time they are in my old place. I am so glad that we are able to meet again. In this world is so small. I feel that is good to meet my old friend. As long as I know what is my part.
My housemate, there is good and bad. Whatever happen try to solve it or leave it to the Lord. We are like sister, we must help each other whatever it is. Sometimes, I just don’t understands why there are things happen to make everything feel so out of control.
The most important thing in my life, which will be my future, my studies and my life. Other things, I am too tired to know about it.
The lecturer in this college was better then before the college that I went. I don’t think is suitable to tell because this is my privacy. Sometimes, people wants to say bad about us. It is no good to tell others about the other college. People might want to make your life miserable but we don’t do bad to them. I always tell myself whatever people do something’s bad to you is okay because for those who do bad things will happen worst for them. There is the different. My lecturer thinking is very positively. They always encourage me and I really need this encouragement. This really help me a lot during my exam time. Thank you to everyone who help me.
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