People

People in life never satisfy
people just think that they are perfect
people just know what they should do
people never think that they are wrong or right

as long as what they do they think is right
never think about the what is going to happen next
of course we dunno what going to happen next
need to precaution about it

people just never bother about it
people just think about themselves
why so selfish person in this world
why such a person can live better then us

i just can't understand what is life
i just know God will handle it
God will do the rest
they will deserve when the time comes

i wan my life to be perfect but life is so unfair
accept as it is
a friend always tell me
whatever happens
just thx God
ya is really true
father Lord
it is really not easy to live in this world
however Lord i try my best to do what should be done
a wondeful life, wonderful God
because of God we are here
trust the lord..
Thank you lord for everything
in jesus name amen

A Prayer

Father Lord,

i am not the one who is running away from problems

is ppl who is running from it

i say i need sometimes for myself

however ppl just dun understand

izzit because they themselves is running from it

after they know is their wrong

or they trying to get this chance running away

Father Lord,

i realize the problem now

i still have strength because of it

i still can live here because of u Lord

because no matter u r there for me

u are to sove it but ppl just dont wan to accept it

i really dunt care about it anymore

forgive my sin also to those is sinner

forgive us Lord

i wan to make a different lord

is not whether u or me

is the way u arrange the matter

they wan me to shift out..

Father Lord,

i am sorry that why i live outside

this is because i cannot handle myself there

i know if i live there my health will be more affected

i wan to leave everything to u

because what is most important

is God is in my life

as the song

we are chosen generation

God, we live for u no for other ppl

u have created us

Father Lord,

i wan to pray for my practical

i know wen i for something happen lord

u surely will make it happen n also wan me to overcome it

Lord, show me the true fren that u have given me for this college

i really wan a true fren is enough

i dun wan more

i just wan a simple fren, able to understand, overcome it, true fren, can be trusted

i surrender lord

I am sorry that i have run away before but i realize

u are the one only can help me in my life

i love u lord

hopefully i have great wisdom lord.

make miracle happen for me lord..

i thank you everything

pls forgive me lord...

in jesus name AMEN...

Have fall and realize to be a wake now

Life is just so unfair

I just can’t understand

What to do this is the evil world as i know

What is life then

When the is life come

Take opportunity to do what it should

When there no life

Whatever u wan to nothing can be done

I wanted to become the best at 1^st

However I have fall

Now I knew it I have fall

I must have a chance to bring my self up

How God

How am I going to bring myself up?

Without you Lord I’m nothing in this world

Where am I going to start it again

This is life

Once only u can do

Therefore God have given the chance just take as it is

Do not make things difficult

Follow is the rite word to express on life

Follow God’s words

Follow the scripture

Follow and obey the word of God

This is life must do what is best

Must really work hard

Lead me through it

I will follow wherever I need

I feel so lost Lord

I don’t know where is ur lamb

Ur lamb have lost by itself

How can I find this lamb (me)

Be a great leader is the target

Not a leader in church or cg or even college

A leader in God heart

Do something like a leader

Leader is confident

Something like a great person to follow

Who is role model this year

The only person is God

We are not perfect in this world

We can’t follow correct way on this

Sometimes, I just leave everything to the Lord

Be a great sister in this world

miss my blog

Oh father, i really miss my blog so much..

Unfortunately i don’t have the time to write my blog..

I guess is already few months didnt update my blog..

Exam and exam been coming just none stop at all.

Now is my holiday

Therefore, I fall sick

Having bad cough and sore throat and the day before yesterday couldn’t even talk

So painful cant do anything.. cant go out, cant drink or eat whatever i want

Cannot eat this and that..

Very tired of it..

Father Lord please heal me Lord in the name of Jesus..

Amen...

Father Lord, I’m sorry lord so much.. Please forgive me.. I didn’t do what i suppose to do.. have been very busy with life and college.. i know Lord life and college is God given to me.. We have to find time for it.. Unfortunately, i don’t know how to arrange my time at all.. This is the worse part that i even had Lord. Lord please bless the people around me.. Show me the way, i feel that not only me fall . Give me strength lord, wisdom and knowledge to be a great person to do a wonderful things for God. I just don’t know what am I doing and where should i start. I just don’t know where should be. I feel that im so lost in this world.

Be my valentine date for today

I was mean to born in this earth
God made us differently
He put each person in a special way
He also match us together in a wonderful way


Be my valentine date for today
I want to feel what is valentine
Every year, I celebrate valentine with family and friends
This year 2010 I want to celebrate with you


Valentine is a special day
It is a celebration for family, friends and couple
Depends on how you celebrate
You can made a different for this celebration


You have told me that
I am like a princess
I don’t care about anything but I love you
I am willing to do anything for you


You are special to me
Even though, you are not a real prince
But you are the prince in my heart


What is important is that
We are happy together
We are willing to understand each other
We will go through problem together


We already been together for 4 months
I feel that we are3 different then other couple
God is so wonderful in this world
It is really amazing to be here today


Love is so amazing
Love will find each other in God’s plan
Love will made us different
Love can’t be explain at all, it comes naturally

I love you
Not because about money
It is because I find happiness in you
No matter what you think of me


I love you as you are
I pray that we are able to be together forever
To me, you are wonderful and special person
Love through Christ is a great way

What will be in 2010

What is my life now?

What can I do?

What can I do Lord

I always depend on you

Until now I still do Lord

I don’t know what should do

Father Lord, please be able to help me in my life

I always depend on you

In the father name

Help me in my studies Lord

Now in relationship Lord

My studies must not affect me

Be with me Lord

Forgive my sin

In words may not be shown

In action will do the best

I can only depend on you

You are my everything

ou have shown me the way

Guide me through everything
I am afraid but I trust in you Lord

In holiday but I am very tired

I want to have some rest

With not soon will be very busy for posting

Training may not be in KL..

Might be in Muar..

I know will be a different and challenging

I hope I have a wonderful Christmas and Chinese new year 2010..

What will my new year 2010 will be..

I want to have a change

I want to be different

PA Outing

A wonderful Hari Raya Holiday
This is the 1st time I go for camping at Bentong
I have learn to independent when I was outside
Have wonderful holiday with friends especially Poh Ling, Seng Tat and also Mun Kin
Is great to get to know new friends
They are very friendly
Some I don’t even know them
This is the camp from new life which is called PA Outing
Actually I went to this outing there is a reason
God knows it.. I dunno what to say

Something to believe in

Finally, I have settled with the person
I really hope he can understand me
Hope that he won’t get upset or this and that
Every time, only got his talk
Even that day also I say something sure he say something
Really hurt my feeling
But never mind whatever it is I have done my part
God will understand me
No matter those people don’t understand
I am OK with it
Because I know God understand
God is with me always
I don’t think is important that he listen a not
I have done the right thing I guess

Now, have to concentrate on the semester 3 final exam is on Tuesday
My OKSI is on Wednesday
I pray that God will guide me through with everything
I just have to trust him and God will do the rest
I have done my reading
Help me to remember it Lord, wisdom, knowledge to do it
In a miracle way
Believe and ask for God Helps and seek for him

I have been through all this
Why I can’t everybody can
Something to believe in.. (God)
How to plan for the mission with Poh Ling
I know she is so excited and worry about it
Now I guess she have to start from Adam..
I just have to be with her.
Lord, show me the way how to deal with it
Thx Lord for everything..

Serve the Lord

After have a chat with a leader from new life church

I decide to have a partner which the person is Poh Ling

I want everything to go smoothly

Hope everything will be fine

Guide us through it

I think I have told Joshua but must face to face to speak

Need some advice on it

We are God children no matter where the people choose is ok

Anyway I am going serve both sides

God please give me the strength

Hope that I’m going to the right track

Lead me through

Now I must a good schedule of the things I need to plan

I hope I don’t fall off just like that

I have to build up confident, life, strength and more

I want to be fire on God

I am depending on You

What Happen??

Just wan to share my feeling since I have enough sleep I guess
Now is already 4am in the morning..
Why I wake up so early having headache now also
If I sleep some more I’m like a pig

Father Lord, I have an experience of the feeling fainting
On the 29 aug I was in genting for the camp DARE TO MOVE…
I only slept for 3 hours I guess
Then I wake up to study and whole day never sleep
After when at night service I was fainted during the service
The feeling was like feeling drizzle, seeing stars all around
After that, I really dunno what happen
By the time I wake im already on the sofa
Two church member carry
I have open my eyes during I fainted and
I know my feet was not on the floor
I couldn’t dare to walk I couldn’t balance myself at all
They decide to carry to my dorm
Since than I feel so sick having so much problem in my life

After camp, means was on the 1 sept I was in college
And I have so called chest pain
I feel that I have something press on the chest couldn’t breath nicely
Slowly I do deep breathing exercise only better a bit
So on the 3 sept was on thurday
I have pain near my scapula and she massage for me
Then I feel a bit hard to breath
So I call seng tat can we just go and eat and I go back but he insist me to go to church
So I went but I was having difficulty so I slept there

I did not talk to jia chuen since Wednesday
That morning is the last talk I talk to him
He is so not matured sometimes
I cannot accept it already
I think I have enough patience with him

On Friday I went my own cell group
I was having back pain but everything was fine at that time
Was talking to my leader
But when they started to worship
I feel very uncomfortable
Hard to breath (SOB) shortness of breath
Then I message Poh Ling
She help to breath nicely
And even she call Seng Tat to pick me up from CG
Then they decide to send me to Hospital (UM)
Everything was ok
Pulse rate was a bit high
The x-ray was ok
Everything was ok just hard to breath
Is so called hyperventilation
The cause is Stress and something trying to stop me
To fulfill my mission
This is what my mum told me
I guess so
Emily calls me and asks how check up
Then I call Joshua to tell him cos he is my leader
He didn’t know anything
Why u didn’t tell me
I know if like that they will also send me to hospital
But is ok.. Poh Ling will take care of it

Thanks to everyone who cares for me
My life in hostel and at home the same I just can’t stand it
Here and there got argument
They only think about themselves
Who think about me
Making problem only
Lead me to a conclusion of success
Nobody thinks about me..
Hope I’m not going for depression