50th anniversary

Yesterday was an awesome night. My grandparent’s 50th anniversary wedding and al the grandchildren match in together. So grand man…

Is a very special occasion
Thanks Lord

Happy Birthday jie jie

Happy Birthday jie jie (Zhe Zhen) hope everything going fine with you
Hope that life going much and much better
Dreams will come true if u work hard
Life so many challenge to go on
Lord, is wonderful that I have a sister like her
Even we do argue sometimes
I know that u love me as much as a younger sister
I’m so glad to have u in my life
Thanks Lord
Please forgive me when I’m rude to you
Sometimes, I just can’t control it
Sorry, however I love you ya…
Muaxx…
Hugs

thinking

All of sudden, I was thinking about that day what (the hospital head of the ward) Sister Ong told me. She says that when got something that I feel uncomfortable can complain to her. To me, no matter how much I want to say but still I feel that is not important. If I complain but they think they can improve. I don’t think so. Therefore, there are people complain before and yet improve only for few days and go back to the same again. Well, yes I will only complain to my friends but I don’t like to complain to the head. What for, to me is no point for complaining to the head. She says be a person must know how to say it out. Is ok that whatever happens no body knows is fine for me as long God knows what I am going through. I know that everybody is not perfect. I’m just too tired to say anything. I just want to live my life through. I don’t want any argument with anyone. If they don’t understand me is ok to me. I have no problem at all. All I can do is keep it inside and write it out to release it that is enough for me.
Sometimes, even I tell people. They will just say no you are wrong. Things should not be done like that. Yes, they are older then me. So what, sometimes the younger one can even know what things are the best. Sometimes, they say if u got anything that I don’t know I can ask. Even I ask just a little bit things also get scolding. Sometimes do you think that I better don’t ask and just do what is right. Or I can ask those all willing to help

grandparent’s 50th anniversary wedding

I can’t wait for my grandparent’s 50th anniversary wedding is on Saturday.
Is amazing that they have been together for so many years
I just want to give them a poem made by me

My grandparents
Since young I have been be with them
Incredible that they have been together for so long
There are times they argue
They still get together and love each other a lot
Doing crazy things together

My grandfather
He is a person who always talks a lot
Talk’s bout last time how things go
I can even repeat what he say
He do care about me very much
I know it very well
Because I’m the grandchildren
Can say I and my sister are the older one
I’m glad to have him in my life

My grandmother
She is a person who always wants to stop my grandfather
For going some where
She is a wonderful grandmother that I ever met
I’m so encourage by her
She always ask me to pray before doing anything
Great to have her in my life
She loves me so much
She even buys things for me

There is once my grandfather ask my grandmother that do she love him
I feel so touched by it
There are so wonderful
My grandmother says yes I do love but it doesn’t show
Therefore, is inside my heart
I have never seen so lovely couple they are
Now a days not many couple is so lovely
So happy for them

There is a song, I really want them to listen is very meaning because the words say that God made us and thinking about us.

When God made you by newsong and Natalie grant
Its always been a mystery to me,How two hearts can come together,And love can last forever.But now that I have found you I believe,That a miracle has come when God sends the perfect one.So gone are all my questions about why,And i've never been so sure of anything in my lifeOh I wonder what God was thinking,when he created you.I wonder if He knew everything I would need,Because he made all my dreams come true.When God made you, He must have been thinking about me.Ooo ooo,I promise that wherever you may go, wherever life may lead you,With all my heart I'll be there too.And from this moment on I want you to know,I'll let nothing come between us, and I will love the ones you love.So gone are all my questions about why
And I’ve never been so sure of anything in my lifeOh I wonder what God was thinking when he created you,I wonder if He knew everythin I would need,Because He made all my dreams come true.When God made you He must've been thinking about me.He made the sun He made the moon,To harmonize a perfect tune,One can't do without the other they just have to be together.And that is how I know it's true,Your for me and i'm for you and my worldJust can't be right without you in my lifeOh I wonder what God was thinking,when he created you.I wonder if He knew everything I would need,Because he made all my dreams come true.When God made you, He must have been thinking about me.He must have heard every prayer I've been praying. He must've knew everything I would needWhen God made you, He must've been thinking about me.

Worried College & hospital

OH Lord!! My course is starting early at 13 October not 2nd November anymore. What is the feeling now? Now I’m worried that I couldn’t get my leave for the course starting. The sister says without me the ward will collapse. However, I’m leaving so soon. What can I do now? Help me Lord hoping that everything will be fine for me tomorrow. I also miss Columbia a bit and the patients that I have help. I really enjoy sometimes but when problem comes just a bit of tired to listen.

Yesterday, we have meeting at Columbia Asia with the GM (General Manager). She can tell about her experience. I can see that she is a very good nurse and friendly person. Her words really inspire me and very meaning to me. The word she has says really happen in my life before.
Life with so many challenges
Encourage me a lot
She says nurses are the 1st to attend patients
Everything patients will come 1st to nurses
I wish to know her background more
It is really interesting
I’m sure she must be a very good GM

Holy Spirit

Well, yesterday I went for cell group for the Christian Apologetics. Some body asks me a question. Do you think Holy Spirit can just come like that or can u reject it? For my personal experience is I cannot stop because I know what is my role. Yes is true that u can reject it but for me. The camp that I went the Holy Spirit speak through me and I start crying out and I can’t stop it so that’s I went front for prayer. Is amazing God is. He knows what I need that’s why for me I will let the Holy Spirit to work through me that’s why I am on earth. I was born here to do something.

What is life man?

Today is a very busy day for me
I have done observation for almost the whole ward
Congrats dear is amazing
Help also get scolding by CI
I have already inform the SN
Why can’t she understand
Even Azizah also say what lah we keep in when we take
Really no cooperation at all
How do I know that I have to inform u
U didn’t tell me anything.
What a tired day
Hmm.. my wrong?? No idea..
Hey nobody is perfect mah in this world
I am out of my mine liao

Psalm 139

Psalm 139
This is my verse for today it speaks through me. Thanks Lord.
This few days a lot of thing happen to me. After came back from s happen always there is a purpose but what is the purpose? I don’t get it.

My head (sister) in the hospital. She says I don’t complain unless she asks me. So far, I don’t complain to her because I have learn that if I complain it means that you don’t like God’s plan or even blame God. I can feel it always there is a reason. I just can’t do it to complain. She ask me to let it out but I can’t this is my attitude. Something, I really do complain but to my friends or family only.

I just want to let it out here. I don’t think I will complain unless I have to do it. These people even new staff nurse also a bit of lazy not a Muslim also like that. I’m really not in the mood. Some more on medication because I got sore throat, flu and so on. Although, I have to do observation and I done all. Therefore, I still have to do collect tray food. I also help Mollie side to put up drip, give hot water. They didn’t appreciate some more ask people to answer call bell. They themselves so free and sitting down on the counter. Can’t they just move and walk around. I think I am considering very good already today. I just can’t stand it almost want to say something but yet I keep it to myself.

Lord, what should I do? Should I tell Sister Ong? No use telling Sister Penny, she only cares about herself and she don’t bother. All she says is write letter or something like that. I want to release it Lord. I dunno what else can I do? All I can do is depend on u. I feel very tired and a bit of angry. Lazy to say already. Just want to cry out to u Lord.

Father Lord, pls help me to control my temper, I really don’t care what are they going to think about me. I have to do my job until done. As long I have done my job. I have done my best. Other people, they don’t know Never mind. Because I know that God’s understand me. He understand what I am going through. Lead me the way Lord. Help me Lord to be different from others. I want to be a better person. Sorry Lord, pls forgive me if I have done wrong. I know I’m a sinful person but forgiven people can go heaven. Thanks Lord, in Jesus name Amen.

Lord Lead me the way, I know is unfair in this earth. I’m tired of it already. hope someone understand me but I know God understand.ya. I want to release.

Just started work the feeling

Today started work after 5 days off. I am so not use to it. I still want holiday. The people which was the??? because of Puasa so not in the good mood. you know !!! nevermind forgive them. I want to leave the place faster. One of the Tung Shin came and work also.

I miss camp. I can’t wait to go next year. I am looking forward to it. Glory to God. Thank you. Be different is a wonderful thing.

When I tell my Aunty melody and my grandma about I want to be a missionary. They seen to be saying something not so good. They say will be suffering from food and suffering. They just don’t understand that we will suffer from this world and we wouldn’t suffer in heaven. If we don’t suffer in this world, I think might be suffering in HELL. They are more on thinking about money. Money cannot bring to heaven but ur heart and soul will be bringing. Oh Lord , please let them understand me.

P.O.D Camp 2008

Thank you Lord for given me an opportunity to go for this camp. (Point Of Difference). Before I go camp, I have pray this prayer Father Lord this time the title is Point of Difference for this camp. I really want different in me happen. I just want to left everything to u to work through me. I want something to meaningful for me. so that I will always remember. I will let go all my worry and my pass for u. In Jesus name Amen.

I really work very hard to go for this camp. Is worth it that everything I have done. The message really good the words of god really touched my heart. One thing, I have learn was have faith is not a hope but is confident. Well, always in worship time, I feel like crying. Thanks Lord I know that u have touched me, feel me and know what is happening in my life. I know that life is challenge but because of God I need to go on and serve the Lord. I believe in you Lord. I love our puchong cg is great. I have never felt that our puchong is so close just like a family ,brothers and sister. I’m so glad that I join this puchong cg. This puchong cg have teach me a lot, encourage me a lot. I’m also glad that I when for this camp. I know that wherever I go there is always a purpose for it.

Those who when for camp isn’t it great? Is awesome. There is a purpose for each of us. Hope u guy and gal enjoy it.

This verse for this year camp
2 cor 5:6-7
So we are always confident, even though we know that as long as we live in these bodies we are not at home with the Lord. that is why we live by believing and not by seeing.

This is the 1st time I celebrate Merdeka in Genting as in Peaceheaven. We are not just enjoying ourselves there but pray for our nation as in our Malaysia. We also pray for our leader and all of us who is there with me. It was great. Really nice to meet new friends. Thanks you Lord.