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Happy 20th birthday
I just want to wish u
HAPPY BIRTHDAYWow.. we have been godsis many years already
Such a long time we know each other
We never celebrate together so this june
We must celebrate together no matter what
Ur 20th and my 21st
Doesn’t matter who pay ya
All the best for ur exam
I know u can do it
I wan to be a missionary
R u with me?
Wait for u lol
We open a clinic
Why not?
Pead not problem hehe
Hope u enjoy ur day lah..
I know u will
Always remember ur sister is with u
God loves u
God bless ya
muaxxx
Happy 21st birthday
So happy today
No matter what
I still happy
I want to be the happiest gal in the world
I get older this year
Already an adult
My college mate remember my birthday
I’m so glad they still remember
Though they busy until forgot
They never let me down
I think I should the same
My best friend, thanks so much Hannah
I love u all
Thanks Lord that im still alive until today
I know there is a purpose for me here
My job still not done yet
My dreams still not success yet
I know u r there to encourage me
I know miracle way will happen
If I believe in you
I have trust in u Lord.
I know u have helped me a lot for this few years.
I’m glad to know u
Muaxx
God bless all of you
Happy anniversary 20th to aunty Mag
Unbelievable same day as me
Just only one year younger then me
Happy Nurses Day on 12 May
I am a nurse
I want to wish all the nurses
Have a great day
You are doing well in your job
Some people might think it will be an easy
Actually is not easy at all
I know all the hard work
Hoping for everyday going well
Is professional job
We will always remember Florence nightingale
She is the lady of lamp
Some day I want to be like her
However God’s will
Dunno when I can be a successful nurse?Hope my dreams come true
Happy mother’s day on the 11 of May
Wish that all mothers will be happier then ever
I love you mummy
No matter where u are I still love you
I know it very well so much
You love me
Sometimes I didn’t say doesn’t mean I dunt care
Wisher everyday will be happier
Having a wonderful life in the world
To me you’re my everything
I want you to be happy
Don’t worry too much on me
I know all that
Please forgive me if I have hurt u mum
I’m sorry
I didn’t mean want to hurt u
Just that sometimes is the feeling that can’t get it off
I know you want to be a nurse when u r young
However u don’t have the chance
Now is my turn to fulfill your dreams mum
I really love this nursing job
I want to be a missionary
However without anything nothing can be done
Is not the time yet
I want to make you proud mum
I just need to trust the Lord
I love you mum
muaxx
Why do I have many problems?
Why people think that way
As people grow older
They have more to think about
Why can’t they just live me alone?
All I can do
Just believe in the Lord
Trust in him
Why do I have to care what they think?
Therefore thinking about others 1st
We cannot be selfish
We have to care for each other
Why do I worry about the things which is happening
No matter what I still care for everybody
They just don’t know me well
If they know very well they will understand
I really don’t want to care what is happening now
After this sick I got
I found out that if a person cannot talk
How does it feel?
Ask yourself
Does u try it before?
Is really hard to explain
What u really wants to do?
I have never been so sick before
I also cannot believe myself
Can’t even get the way it is
That show how bad it is
When I was young
I have always ask why this and that
What is I can’t talk or walk?
What my life going to be
However, this time I really understand
Maybe is god’s plan for me
To be me understand what is really life means
No matter what I can only say thank you Lord
In a way of life
Given me a chance again
Why I don’t receive it as it is
Am I worried about it?
How can I do it?
Trust in the Lord,
Always believe in him
Prayer will succeed with true heart
In a way of life
I need to go on with it
I want to be a successful
Do my best for it
How can I do it?
What is my purpose in life?
Can I fulfill it?
Do I have the courage for it?
In a way of life
In heart to be a missionary
I want to be a nurse
Help the sick people
Thank you Lord
I know you are always there for me
I want to serve him
In mind to think clearly
I have thought about my life. I want to continue my studies, however, the problem should I retake my BM or just go for a college to study. Seriously, I don’t want any hospital to sponsor me and give me scholarship. I know is good but thinking about it. I’m afraid it happens again like I’m in Tung Shin. Lord, can I really do it? I have told my leader about it.
Finally, I have told him about it. Why I want to be a nurse is because I want to become a missionary not like those who go any where to tell others about Christ. However, I want to help those who are in problem, sick, nobody care for them and I hope I’m able to pray for them. Slowly, I will tell them about Christ and also listen to their problem to understand what they are thinking. This is my purpose and my dreams. I know God have already done so much in life. That’s why I need to fulfill this dream to serve him with all my heart. He says wow you want to be Florence nightingale. I am doing this for God not for myself.
Oh lord, can I really do this? When can I fulfill it? I plan to study and after that work 1st to pay back the money. After that, I have enough to take care of myself. I want to go and help the poor country. I know is not easy but I am going to do it no matter what. I know the devil wills always trying to take me away from God. There are so many times that I blame God. Now, I just want to say sorry. Sometimes, I just dunno what is right and wrong. Izzit my fault? Maybe is not the time yet. I dunno when the right time is. Therefore, I know what I want to be.
I know being a missionary is not easy. That’s why now I am trying to know more about God. Some people just don’t understand. There are many kind of missionary, mine is as I have said above.
I just want to have a prayer here.
Father Lord, thank you for everything. You are always there for me. I’m so sorry Lord about the things I do is not right. Please be able to forgive me. OH lord, Please show me the way to what it should be done. I just want to leave everything to you. Please tell me when the right time is for me. I have been waiting for it. I have been through so much and I know Lord you will let it be true when I believe in it. Lord, what is my plan for this year? I have plan to join the Christmas this year however I’m working can’t even go practice. It seen my plans are upside down. Lord, please give me an answer for it. I’m so desperate Lord. I leave the rest to u all. Thanks Lord for everything.
In Jesus name Amen.
Proverbs 2:2
Tune your ears to wisdom, and concentrate on understanding.
To personally know God, we must know how to fear God. If we don’t know how to fear God then we will keep doing something which is not right such as SIN.
I was upset already that I cannot join Christmas this year. Even audition also cannot go because not every Saturday I can go sometimes I’m working. I really want to put my all for this year. I want to serve the Lord for this year and next year, I really hope I can study a diploma to get a cert and do what I should do. Oh, Lord, what you really want me to do for my life?
That day, actually my friend just become a Christian for about one to two years I think however I know is after SPM only he became a Christian. He thinks that he knows more then me. The problem is if blessing to others is give then to receive but if is god’s words is sure know more about it 1st. why he wants to have fight with me. He doesn’t know how I work as I can say I cannot always go to church. He says must go to church to receive god’s words. However, this job that I work is to serve the Lord. Everything must be slowly and step by step. Yes, is true to go church and receive god’s word. Therefore, does he know that some people go to church just only go to church and go back? If we want to go church is use your heart to praise the Lord and worship him with all our heart. Not just go and back without anything. I have told him that my job not always can go church only when I’m not working I will go. He told to me resign to get a job which can go to church. I really love my job I won’t do this. I have told my self I will do my best for this job.
I have gone through so much. I know that God really want me to be a successful nurse. I really want to go and do missionary to help the sick people and want them to know more about god’s word. What is god’s plan for me? I have take assistant nurse and yet I have fail and I got another chance to Segi College Kuala Lumpur for diploma. Therefore, I have run away cos I don’t like the place. And now, there is a chance for me again. Which is the Columbia Asia wants to sponsor me to studies however I need to take my BM again. Why people just don’t understand me?
What was I thinking? What is my life? What am I going to do about it? What is the problem with me? I have been thinking so much.. What I really want in my life? I can’t stay my whole life as a PCA (Personal care Assistant) no matter what I have been through. I know God is still there for me. I have pray for it and God always answer my prayer. I’m asking God can I really do it, can I really be a staff nurse? Here comes the chance again. At TSH, I have drop out because I have fail then got into Segi College KL drop out again because of my own problem. I cannot handle it. Can I really be a missionary? I was asking my aunty why I wan to go for missionary. I also dunno why I have been asking myself can I really do it. My aunty told me because I love god so much that’s why I want to go for missionary.
The problem now I have to retake my BM, still have to go and take my BM. Cannot run away from it. Looks like I’m trying to run away from problem haiz…
Yesterday I went back to QHC medical centre to take my stuff. I saw Angela, Christina, priya , nithay and eeranee. They all ask me how is my studies, what can I say I just say ok lol. With not all of them will ask me to work there. Good thing, Christina helps me. Is very wrong to lie. I’m so sorry Lord that I have lie. I really don’t want to lie but really no choice.
Segi College… my friends all miss me. They want me to go and visit them. They also say any time also can visit. What to do I don’t have time. Same as TSH. Thanks Lord. At least I know that they are still people appreciate me.
What is my life going to be? Lord I hope I can take the stress. I know I have drop out and God u are giving me a chance to do it. The Columbia Asia wants to sponsor me to study. Is a sign from u rite?
Sorry lord. Forgive my sin. I know that sometimes I really did very wrong. That’s why this year I want to serve u lord with all my heart. I want to commit myself to u. so no matter what I am going to join the Christmas for this year. Lord I hope no changes for me this year. Is enough for it. I don’t want to change plan already just for this year.
Please Lord; help me to feel comfortable in cell group. Recently like I’m having a bad mood doesn’t know why. Izzit the people there should be lol… I seldom go cg and how to be part of cg. Recently only I commit myself in it. They just don’t understand me. No body can understand me is okay. Help me to do what should I do..
Haizz why everyday also so tired, working life is like tat. However, I enjoy it. Today I meet my old friend was meet in tung shin hospital she is working in the hospital with me now.. is really such a small world. One is my church member another was as I have said.
Today, I meet my boss I dunno what position is she. She wan to send to me to study but I have to retake my BM. She say be a PCA no future. Oh Lord, this time I hope I really can pass through if u really wan to send me.
My mother say sure got a lot of ppl jealous one. Haiz what to do wherever I go also got ppl jealous of me. Tung shin, QHC and now Columbia what ability I have until like tat. Thanks God for it.. thanks muaxx I love u lord tats all I can say now…
Happy 20th birthday
