Christmas

Me and my cg leader (Josh)
Jack.. he came back from Australia..

My cg members
(Rachel Ding, Melissa Leong, me, Charis & Rachel Yap)

Post everybody

CG family photo

CG family photo ( pot bless)

Thinking about what we want for Christmas

What is Christmas all bout
Not about present
Not about Santa Claus
Is all bout Jesus

He is born on Christmas Day
He is very important to us
He die on the cross for us
Our sin

As years has come
Everyone though Christmas is bout Santa Claus or present
People always get the wrong information

I pray that people will understand more
Have Christian share to them about Christ
Christ is here

This Christmas I really enjoy myself
I have great family, friends, pccg, best friend
I wan for Christmas not about having a BMW or expensive stuff
I just wan a different in me,
Non-christian to become 1
That’s all

Thanks Lord for giving me a wonderful Christmas
Is better then last year
Last year was rushing here and there
For training
Not easy to become a nurse
Be a nurse have to sacrifice ur time

Be a good nurse

Be a good nurse
Is not easy to be a good nurse
Must have the patience, caring, responsible…..
There are steps to learn more

Firstly is our attitude
Change our attitude to be the best
Before we touch patient’s life
By each day we learn to change

When we see patient 1st thing is to smile
Before we do anything
Patient will feel comfortable
When we treat them as our friend

Our communication is very important
Always remember to listen to their needs
As nurses, try to help them or even solve their problem
Care for them as our family

When we need to do procedures
Explain everything to patient
Before we do anything
Let them know what the nurses are going to do

When we have some free time
We can have sometime for them
So that we can give health education (how to take care of themselves)
They will know that nurses do care about them

When patients feeling sad or on desperation
Nurses have to observe more
Take more attention on them
Understand their condition

Nurses is also like a counselor
Must be a good listener
So that we know how have they gone through their life
Nurses also can give advice on that

Nurses also can ask about how’s today?
Izzit better then yesterday
We know that each day they are getting better
Nurses and doctor also will be happy that patient getting well by each day

A Life Of Cindy

All of sudden, Cindy ask me to write a poem because I’m free. My lecture didn’t come again. How am I going to take my exam? God please help me. I’m trusting on you and depend on you.

In a word that needs to be expression on you
That will be your life full of Confidence
I can see some specialty in you
It is very hard to speak out from my mouth

From my experience
You are a very strong Christian
You are a very close to God
You are able to hear Gods voice

Whenever I talk to you
I’m full with confidence
Maybe I would say
Full of life and able to communicate

I would to say that
You are a person who accept anyone
You are a person who good listener
Continue to be a person who God wants

Time flies just like that
We are here for a purpose
Therefore to speak Gospel to others
No matter what religion are they

In this earth,
Not everything is easy
We must know how to get over it
Life is not just like that

We have full of things to do
Find out what is a greatest thing in you
Share it to those who need it
Everyone have a spiritual gift
Have you find it yet

I have a spiritual gift
Which is not everybody has it
A good listener, caring person
Maybe I would I am a very understanding person
Would you agree with that?
This is what I have found in me

An encouragement for u
Continue to seek God
Continue to love him and pray
He is the best God that I ever have in my life

Thanks father Lord. I know you are always there for me.
Lean me through whatever it is.

Happy Birthday to Samuel, Stephen, Dasoh and Melissa Yeoh for this week
All the best in everything you guys do.
God bless you.

Happy Deepavali

Just want to Wish those who celebrating Deepavali
Happy Deepavali
Enjoy your day ya

That day, I got a friend ask me about Christ. She is a malay. Is great that, I am able to speak in Malay to tell them about Christ. Oh Lord, this is the purpose I am here. I know that God is always with me. I’m not afraid to speak about Christ. I know that the Lord will lean me through and speak through my mouth by his words. I am proud of myself. Now, I learning a lot to have more confidence in myself. All this things, I can do why not studying. Thanks Lord that you are always there for me. Lord continues to work in me.

The pinky

So formal like working hehe

In English Class, she is my housemate and my partner।

The Ladies

The nurses

Like still sleeping. In Auditorm B like UNI class. It is Uni

Is Friday can’t wait to go back

Boring

What should I do? My English teacher didn’t come. Few times already she didn’t come. What happen to her? I’m wasting my time in computer lab now.

Just now, my friend who studies in Tung Shin invited me to go for graduation on the 7 December. I didn’t finish the course. Now no matter what I must finish it. Is my dream and God’s task is given to me.

Nothing is easy in the world
Work hard
Work smart
This earth is different from the old generation

Life is not as simple as it is
We have our specialty
Use it wisely
Everything is in our hand

What should I do?
I’m worried
Whether to go a not
What are they going to say about me?

How can I keep the secret in me?
What they going to think about me?
I don’t care what they think about me
Just dunno what else they will say

Is either good or bad?
I need to accept it
Life is like politic
Stick with it

I know my dreams
I need to be success soon
Who cares what people say
Do what is right

Do what is suppose to do
Be a successful person
Show it to them
They are wrong

Lean me thought Lord
I have to count on u
Do my best
Why others can why I cannot
Believe that everything is possible
In this earth
Have faith in the Lord
Trust him

This is just to encourage myself. I have to think positively

This is how my college started this year for diploma

Today, I went to sunway pyramid with my good friend.
Christie from Tung Shin hospital (Assistant Nurse)
This is our first time go out to sunway by car
Such a long we didn’t go out
So happy that we went out

My housemate ( ros, me and eva)
The art department and different post

Charen, me, ros, nurul and azi

ros, me and eva

My housemate

My housemate

A post which looking up
What izzit?
Only wall on top
Special post I think

Smile gurl

What is that gurl?
Wearing baju kurung
Look special
Purple looks nice

This is ros
We are in the same class for English
We also same group
Is amazing
Good partner I think

First week in Segi university college

Thanks Lord, I have started my nursing course. These 4 weeks I start with English class to improve my English. I will be staying in the hostel. The hostel is very far from Puchong. It will take more then 1 hour and the half to reach my hostel. my college is at Kota Damansara. What I can say? The hostel is better then the previous one. I don’t want to complain about it. I will try my best to get use to it. My dream is to be a missionary. So when a missionary go to overseas that will be worst then this training that I want. I must do my best no matter what I have to continue. This point will be my beginning.

That is something I need to share. When we are on earth, we have something important to our life. Our life wouldn’t be easy because we have a purpose to be here. What is the purpose in life? Some might not know, God made each of us to be in the earth with a purpose as share Christ to the non-Christian. Everybody will have a difficult time. However, when Jesus comes back to earth everything will be different. We will have a good life. When times come, we will be in heaven and is a wonderful place. We will suffer because there is a purpose for me to be here.

Lord, this time I will do my best because of what task you have giving me। I want to finish that task. I want my life to be interesting. No matter what happen, I must be able to finish this task. I know nothing is easy in this earth. As some people say there is nothing free in this earth.

Today, I went out with my friend. She is a Assistant Nurse. She studies with me in Tung Shin hospital. I am very happy to go out with her. Father Lord, just want to have a short prayer. I’m hoping that she will be able to transfer to Columbia Asia to work. No matter what don’t let her feel that whatever she does is nothing can be done better. She just broke up with her boyfriend. Help her to control her feeling because the guy really hurt her very deeply and broke her heart. That guy has another girl by massaging a lover massage. Help her to let go. Show how great is a God to her. Without God is different in life but without guy nothing is cannot be done. Show her a miracle and able to accept Christ. In Jesus name Amen.

Go out with friends

This is Jia Chuen and me
Wow..we know each other for such a long time
Since I’m form one till now
We are really like brother and sister
Izzit that great
Brother and sister in Christ
We talk to mun kin about Christ that day
Hope it will work cos it lean through christ

This is Poh Ling
My schoolmate and college room mate
We are sisters
She is a vegetarian
We both know each other very well
She encourage me to finish this course this time
Love u so much.. thanks
Father Lord, hope some day she will accept Christ
We have been stay in one year and the half already


That day, I went out with my secondary school friend.
I seldom go out with them
However I am having a great time
We have talked a lot
All of us grow up
There is a differents
Izzit it great that people change
Thank God for given me a change to meet my old friend
That will be mun kin and poh ling..
Poh ling is my school mate and college friend hehe

We were at kopitiam in PJ On the 9 October 2008

50th anniversary

Yesterday was an awesome night. My grandparent’s 50th anniversary wedding and al the grandchildren match in together. So grand man…

Is a very special occasion
Thanks Lord

Happy Birthday jie jie

Happy Birthday jie jie (Zhe Zhen) hope everything going fine with you
Hope that life going much and much better
Dreams will come true if u work hard
Life so many challenge to go on
Lord, is wonderful that I have a sister like her
Even we do argue sometimes
I know that u love me as much as a younger sister
I’m so glad to have u in my life
Thanks Lord
Please forgive me when I’m rude to you
Sometimes, I just can’t control it
Sorry, however I love you ya…
Muaxx…
Hugs

thinking

All of sudden, I was thinking about that day what (the hospital head of the ward) Sister Ong told me. She says that when got something that I feel uncomfortable can complain to her. To me, no matter how much I want to say but still I feel that is not important. If I complain but they think they can improve. I don’t think so. Therefore, there are people complain before and yet improve only for few days and go back to the same again. Well, yes I will only complain to my friends but I don’t like to complain to the head. What for, to me is no point for complaining to the head. She says be a person must know how to say it out. Is ok that whatever happens no body knows is fine for me as long God knows what I am going through. I know that everybody is not perfect. I’m just too tired to say anything. I just want to live my life through. I don’t want any argument with anyone. If they don’t understand me is ok to me. I have no problem at all. All I can do is keep it inside and write it out to release it that is enough for me.
Sometimes, even I tell people. They will just say no you are wrong. Things should not be done like that. Yes, they are older then me. So what, sometimes the younger one can even know what things are the best. Sometimes, they say if u got anything that I don’t know I can ask. Even I ask just a little bit things also get scolding. Sometimes do you think that I better don’t ask and just do what is right. Or I can ask those all willing to help

grandparent’s 50th anniversary wedding

I can’t wait for my grandparent’s 50th anniversary wedding is on Saturday.
Is amazing that they have been together for so many years
I just want to give them a poem made by me

My grandparents
Since young I have been be with them
Incredible that they have been together for so long
There are times they argue
They still get together and love each other a lot
Doing crazy things together

My grandfather
He is a person who always talks a lot
Talk’s bout last time how things go
I can even repeat what he say
He do care about me very much
I know it very well
Because I’m the grandchildren
Can say I and my sister are the older one
I’m glad to have him in my life

My grandmother
She is a person who always wants to stop my grandfather
For going some where
She is a wonderful grandmother that I ever met
I’m so encourage by her
She always ask me to pray before doing anything
Great to have her in my life
She loves me so much
She even buys things for me

There is once my grandfather ask my grandmother that do she love him
I feel so touched by it
There are so wonderful
My grandmother says yes I do love but it doesn’t show
Therefore, is inside my heart
I have never seen so lovely couple they are
Now a days not many couple is so lovely
So happy for them

There is a song, I really want them to listen is very meaning because the words say that God made us and thinking about us.

When God made you by newsong and Natalie grant
Its always been a mystery to me,How two hearts can come together,And love can last forever.But now that I have found you I believe,That a miracle has come when God sends the perfect one.So gone are all my questions about why,And i've never been so sure of anything in my lifeOh I wonder what God was thinking,when he created you.I wonder if He knew everything I would need,Because he made all my dreams come true.When God made you, He must have been thinking about me.Ooo ooo,I promise that wherever you may go, wherever life may lead you,With all my heart I'll be there too.And from this moment on I want you to know,I'll let nothing come between us, and I will love the ones you love.So gone are all my questions about why
And I’ve never been so sure of anything in my lifeOh I wonder what God was thinking when he created you,I wonder if He knew everythin I would need,Because He made all my dreams come true.When God made you He must've been thinking about me.He made the sun He made the moon,To harmonize a perfect tune,One can't do without the other they just have to be together.And that is how I know it's true,Your for me and i'm for you and my worldJust can't be right without you in my lifeOh I wonder what God was thinking,when he created you.I wonder if He knew everything I would need,Because he made all my dreams come true.When God made you, He must have been thinking about me.He must have heard every prayer I've been praying. He must've knew everything I would needWhen God made you, He must've been thinking about me.

Worried College & hospital

OH Lord!! My course is starting early at 13 October not 2nd November anymore. What is the feeling now? Now I’m worried that I couldn’t get my leave for the course starting. The sister says without me the ward will collapse. However, I’m leaving so soon. What can I do now? Help me Lord hoping that everything will be fine for me tomorrow. I also miss Columbia a bit and the patients that I have help. I really enjoy sometimes but when problem comes just a bit of tired to listen.

Yesterday, we have meeting at Columbia Asia with the GM (General Manager). She can tell about her experience. I can see that she is a very good nurse and friendly person. Her words really inspire me and very meaning to me. The word she has says really happen in my life before.
Life with so many challenges
Encourage me a lot
She says nurses are the 1st to attend patients
Everything patients will come 1st to nurses
I wish to know her background more
It is really interesting
I’m sure she must be a very good GM

Holy Spirit

Well, yesterday I went for cell group for the Christian Apologetics. Some body asks me a question. Do you think Holy Spirit can just come like that or can u reject it? For my personal experience is I cannot stop because I know what is my role. Yes is true that u can reject it but for me. The camp that I went the Holy Spirit speak through me and I start crying out and I can’t stop it so that’s I went front for prayer. Is amazing God is. He knows what I need that’s why for me I will let the Holy Spirit to work through me that’s why I am on earth. I was born here to do something.

What is life man?

Today is a very busy day for me
I have done observation for almost the whole ward
Congrats dear is amazing
Help also get scolding by CI
I have already inform the SN
Why can’t she understand
Even Azizah also say what lah we keep in when we take
Really no cooperation at all
How do I know that I have to inform u
U didn’t tell me anything.
What a tired day
Hmm.. my wrong?? No idea..
Hey nobody is perfect mah in this world
I am out of my mine liao

Psalm 139

Psalm 139
This is my verse for today it speaks through me. Thanks Lord.
This few days a lot of thing happen to me. After came back from s happen always there is a purpose but what is the purpose? I don’t get it.

My head (sister) in the hospital. She says I don’t complain unless she asks me. So far, I don’t complain to her because I have learn that if I complain it means that you don’t like God’s plan or even blame God. I can feel it always there is a reason. I just can’t do it to complain. She ask me to let it out but I can’t this is my attitude. Something, I really do complain but to my friends or family only.

I just want to let it out here. I don’t think I will complain unless I have to do it. These people even new staff nurse also a bit of lazy not a Muslim also like that. I’m really not in the mood. Some more on medication because I got sore throat, flu and so on. Although, I have to do observation and I done all. Therefore, I still have to do collect tray food. I also help Mollie side to put up drip, give hot water. They didn’t appreciate some more ask people to answer call bell. They themselves so free and sitting down on the counter. Can’t they just move and walk around. I think I am considering very good already today. I just can’t stand it almost want to say something but yet I keep it to myself.

Lord, what should I do? Should I tell Sister Ong? No use telling Sister Penny, she only cares about herself and she don’t bother. All she says is write letter or something like that. I want to release it Lord. I dunno what else can I do? All I can do is depend on u. I feel very tired and a bit of angry. Lazy to say already. Just want to cry out to u Lord.

Father Lord, pls help me to control my temper, I really don’t care what are they going to think about me. I have to do my job until done. As long I have done my job. I have done my best. Other people, they don’t know Never mind. Because I know that God’s understand me. He understand what I am going through. Lead me the way Lord. Help me Lord to be different from others. I want to be a better person. Sorry Lord, pls forgive me if I have done wrong. I know I’m a sinful person but forgiven people can go heaven. Thanks Lord, in Jesus name Amen.

Lord Lead me the way, I know is unfair in this earth. I’m tired of it already. hope someone understand me but I know God understand.ya. I want to release.

Just started work the feeling

Today started work after 5 days off. I am so not use to it. I still want holiday. The people which was the??? because of Puasa so not in the good mood. you know !!! nevermind forgive them. I want to leave the place faster. One of the Tung Shin came and work also.

I miss camp. I can’t wait to go next year. I am looking forward to it. Glory to God. Thank you. Be different is a wonderful thing.

When I tell my Aunty melody and my grandma about I want to be a missionary. They seen to be saying something not so good. They say will be suffering from food and suffering. They just don’t understand that we will suffer from this world and we wouldn’t suffer in heaven. If we don’t suffer in this world, I think might be suffering in HELL. They are more on thinking about money. Money cannot bring to heaven but ur heart and soul will be bringing. Oh Lord , please let them understand me.

P.O.D Camp 2008

Thank you Lord for given me an opportunity to go for this camp. (Point Of Difference). Before I go camp, I have pray this prayer Father Lord this time the title is Point of Difference for this camp. I really want different in me happen. I just want to left everything to u to work through me. I want something to meaningful for me. so that I will always remember. I will let go all my worry and my pass for u. In Jesus name Amen.

I really work very hard to go for this camp. Is worth it that everything I have done. The message really good the words of god really touched my heart. One thing, I have learn was have faith is not a hope but is confident. Well, always in worship time, I feel like crying. Thanks Lord I know that u have touched me, feel me and know what is happening in my life. I know that life is challenge but because of God I need to go on and serve the Lord. I believe in you Lord. I love our puchong cg is great. I have never felt that our puchong is so close just like a family ,brothers and sister. I’m so glad that I join this puchong cg. This puchong cg have teach me a lot, encourage me a lot. I’m also glad that I when for this camp. I know that wherever I go there is always a purpose for it.

Those who when for camp isn’t it great? Is awesome. There is a purpose for each of us. Hope u guy and gal enjoy it.

This verse for this year camp
2 cor 5:6-7
So we are always confident, even though we know that as long as we live in these bodies we are not at home with the Lord. that is why we live by believing and not by seeing.

This is the 1st time I celebrate Merdeka in Genting as in Peaceheaven. We are not just enjoying ourselves there but pray for our nation as in our Malaysia. We also pray for our leader and all of us who is there with me. It was great. Really nice to meet new friends. Thanks you Lord.

To believe

I have been thinking about it
And I have decide to go tomorrow to register
I really hope this is the right thing I’m doing
I’m scare but Lord
Help me in everything
Let everything to go smooth
My target is a missionary
Even I know go mission is not easy
I know I will suffer
I wiling to go and do it
Heaven is the best place
I want everybody to know about God
However, how am I going to tell others?
Lead me the way Lord
The only I can do
Trust in the Lord
I believe in you

dreams

Oh Lord, here I am again
More of u Lord
I’m feeling lost again
I wonder what is camp going to be
Seen a bit lost of people
Less people joining
Everybody seen to be very busy lately

I’m sorry lord that I didn’t go church
I really can’t go because of work
I hope to go to learn more gods’ word
Missionary is not easy ok
My dreams Lord
With not why am I on earth for
Therefore the job is for me
I must fulfill it with all my heart
Stop asking me that r u going to do it
Are u going to study nursing
YES!!! Because of the Lord
I don’t care do I have boyfren a not
I go for mission I think single is better
No need to worry too much
I know the Lord will take care of my family
All I need to do is to trust God
Work my very best for it

Someone told me that someone in the hospital that he / she want me to work permanent in this hospital as a personal care assistant (PCA). I really don’t know what am I thinking. Don’t know whether to feel happy or sad? Actually a bit sad like want me to work as a PCA the rest of my life then how am I going to fulfill my dreams.

Mission is my target

Father Lord, I am really thinking to go and study. The next intake will be in November should I go or wait until 2009. what should I do lord. Somemore sheena is coming in December though of celebrate with my family for this year. I don’t think !!! what is this? Is this what u want for ur life. U know what u want and everybody is supporting u and yet u trying to give up. What is this? Remember what u want to do for the Lord have u forgotten about it? Can I really do it? Even Dr. support me such a wonderful thing happen to me. I’m glad that happen to me. Such an experience for me.

Help me Lord !! I want to go for November been tired being a personal care assistant but work like a staff nurse help me lord to have good result.. I want the license to go for mission.

Thank you Lord

Wow, now a day I become a translator. DR Jurina always looks for me. It is great that someone appreciate me for something different in life. Thanks god because given me a chance to help people I feel that I’m doing something great. I really feel that life is a miracle. At first, I though nobody cares about and yet I have explain what the Dr wants to tell patient about their condition. The patients say thank you Dr. so I told the Dr that the patient say thank you. Then amazing that the Dr say no I must thank you because you are the one who explain the correct way. I’m so thankful. Oh lord; I really know what is give then to receive. This verse always reminds me that to care for others then yourself. Those who don’t know must start doing it the right way. U did a great job, people will appreciate u.

Lord, I understand that why u have put in at Columbia Asia. Sometimes, I will be asking am I in a right place? What should I do here? My job is not done yet. I will still continue to serve u the way it is. What is right I have to do the best? I know what my life to be. I’m still close to the lord. Muax.. thanks Lord. The patient should thank u.

Remember sumitah always

Life will go on
Time will pass on and on
Friendship is always there
As long we always remember

No matter where u are
I will always remember u
I am very happy
To know u as a friend

Remember to choose the place wisely
Every place will have different
People, things are different too
Wherever place u go be the best

Remember me ya
I’m a very special girl
Does u want to know why?
I’m grateful to know u
Not easy to know a friend like u
Muaxx

My friend in Columbia asia is living already. I really dunno what to say. I can only say I will miss her a lot..

Release everything to the Lord

In this world
Nobody understand me at all
I want to be protector
No protection at all

As times come
I felt scare
More and more problem
Is this a challenge for me?

Lord, Are u testing me
Are u helping me
To solve problem
My life I just want peaceful

Why can’t be peaceful
This earth is going evil
Does the world know that?
My job is not done yet

I know the world not going to end
Until I finish my task
What is my task?
Be a missionary nurse

What is a missionary nurse?
Some say tell others about Christ
Half of it is correct
That’s not all

I want to help the sick
By praying
I’m still afraid to pray for others
I need to work on it for my braveness

I wan to go all over the world
People always ask about do u have BF
For me, I don’t think they will accept
How can they accept the gal go all over the world

Dear Lord, as u can see that I’m working very hard at Columbia. Sometimes, not that I wan to complain. I just wan to let it out. I am the person who doesn’t want to keep the problem inside my heart. The more u keeps the more we will get crazy bout it. I don’t wan to go into depression. I’m a nurse need to know how to take care of our feeling. People will always use me but I don’t really bother about it. I’m use to it. They always put me in charge of the whole ward for observation. Is very stressful for me and they give it everything for me to do. They think I’m a super robot. Sometimes I really cannot handle myself.

I need someone to be there to understand me. Hannah do u understands me? You know me very well. If I work means I work my best as in I work very hard even eat also don’t have time. I just feel very unfair to me. When I sit down, they say I’m free no work to do. When other PCA (personal care assistant) they just do nothing and yet they didn’t say anything. One day, I’m busy doing everything I just ask a PCA as in ward aid to help me to take water she say I’m rude to her. What did I do wrong? I didn’t even ask u to walk up and down or help to do observation is considering very good already. Just need to take the flask to put water also so difficult. They can make noise then I also can make noise that observation is not my job. How can people be like that? I just told the person that if u doesn’t wan to do I will do it myself. She said “oh no, I came to work also one”. I work so hard and they can just relax is so unfair to me. Some more can say that I handle the whole ward. Stressful until they also don’t know about it. What I know is they only care about themselves. Oh Lord, when is December? I wan to leave this place very soon. They can just leave everything to me. I know is good that they trust me but I’m very stressful. Worst then study if I may say so myself.

Some people who understand me they say if one day I leave this place I really don’t know how are they going to survive. They depend on me so much sometimes. What I can say I’m the only one ho work the best and very hard working. The sisters also can see one cos they told me. I though they don’t know thanks God for it. At least they are people who understand me and appreciate me.

I’m hungry for God. I’m desperate for u Lord. Needed to be free from it. Help me LORD to release my sadness, angriness cos all I can do now is depend on you lord.

Father Lord, I wan to pray for Hannah that helps her to remember the things that she read. Help her in the exam not to forget anything but confidently to answer. Show her the miracle way. Pray for Florence Lord hope she can get her ticket to come back to Malaysia save journey. Hope that there wouldn’t be any problem cos she really trusts u Lord for everything. I can see that she is really very strong Christian. Help me Lord to release everything that I feel bad bout work. I just wan to leave everything cos I know u r there to help me. thanks lord for everything. I believe in miracle always it does happen to me. thank u lord in Jesus Name Amen.

About my work

What is this man?
What I want to do?
I really don’t know
Why life so difficult for me?

I know that whatever I do
Is for the Lord
Somehow thinking turns
This is life that always turns

I try to do my best
And yet is my fault
What is my problem now?
Can I let it all out just like that?

Today, I’m working morning. I’m supposed to work evening because of nana taking leave that is why I’m working morning. So, I have to take care of Ward as usual. There people just like to do what they want. They can just relax. For me, I work so hard and yet get scolding from matron and some other people. Sometimes, working no point for me at all. I feel like resigning already. I just want to be peaceful. Why can’t just be peaceful for me. Why am I suffering like that. Oh lord. I can only trust you. What should I do? teach me dear Lord.

Sadly about the place

I’m sorry Lord.
I feel that I’m away
I’m lost
I’m not close to you anymore then before

Forgive me dear Lord
I really want to be with you always
I dunno why we are so far away
What is my purpose now?

Why people have to let down my hope
I still remember the things happen to me
I want to forget about it
How come still in memory

I’m happy to see my friends in Tung Shin
Sadly about the place there
Remind me so much
I hope this is my last time going there

How to see my friends?
Don’t need to
A few times already
I love my friends so much

Is the place make me sad
Not my friends

Scary day

Well, I have to set my mind now
Next year must go to study for good
Help me Lord
I must have trust in u

After the incident happen yesterday
I’m realize how important my life is
The guy who disturb which is an Indian guy
He asking me I’m what race so I say
Orang asli funny rite
I try not to say anything about myself
Age haizz.. Not important to tell others also
Girls is very sensitive one
Good thing I run out fast with not what is next
Normally I heard but I don’t really bother
Cos I though it won’t happen to me
And yet this thing really happen
How can this be?

There is a guy at my work place
He wants to ask me out for a date
For me as a friend only
How can I trust him?
He is an Indian
Not that Indian cannot but
If he simply do something to me
What will happen to me?
Difficult to find a good boyfriend
Haizz

Why life so challenge
Can he wait for me
To study
Can he?
Can I trust him?
Oh lord
Nothing on earth is for me
I just want someone there to care for me always
The only person is u lord.
U are the only I can trust
Help me lord
What is my life going to be?

A times of thinking

What am I thinking now?
Lives still have to go on
No matter where we are
We have to face it

I must have confident for myself
Sometimes I feel that I’m lost
Do I have the faith?
I really don’t know myself

When times I don’t realize it
Forgive me Lord
Now I will concentrate on work 1st
Nothing else to think of

Trust in the lord
He will lead the way for me
I know he will
That’s why I’m on this earth

There is still something
I’m haven’t done
This earth is evil
Times come very fast

Things happen just like that
Earth shaker in country
Water flow just like that
The world is going to end

In times come
Day by day
I have no reason to ask why
I know what I should do

As we grew older
People might be more mature in life
We know what our decision is
Thanks lord

You always in my heart
I have the trust in you
Guide me through
I love you Lord

I have been very busy working for night shift and over time. Wow, this is super busy. This is the first time I get to work 6 night experience. I never work such a long night before. It is an interesting. If u hasn’t tried u will never know how hard it is. For me is just as same as the normal working days but long hours.

I feel that after my night shift, I’m lost it. I’m so sorry God that I don’t have the time for u. forgive me Lord. I know how important you are in my life. When there are times I’m suffering and you are there for me. I know it.

Happy 20th birthday to my best friend

Happy 20th birthday
I just want to wish u
HAPPY BIRTHDAY
Wow.. we have been godsis many years already
Such a long time we know each other
We never celebrate together so this june
We must celebrate together no matter what
Ur 20th and my 21st
Doesn’t matter who pay ya
All the best for ur exam
I know u can do it
I wan to be a missionary
R u with me?
Wait for u lol
We open a clinic
Why not?
Pead not problem hehe
Hope u enjoy ur day lah..
I know u will
Always remember ur sister is with u
God loves u
God bless ya
muaxxx

21st birthday

Happy 21st birthday
So happy today
No matter what
I still happy
I want to be the happiest gal in the world
I get older this year
Already an adult
My college mate remember my birthday
I’m so glad they still remember
Though they busy until forgot
They never let me down
I think I should the same
My best friend, thanks so much Hannah
I love u all
Thanks Lord that im still alive until today
I know there is a purpose for me here
My job still not done yet
My dreams still not success yet
I know u r there to encourage me
I know miracle way will happen
If I believe in you
I have trust in u Lord.
I know u have helped me a lot for this few years.
I’m glad to know u
Muaxx

God bless all of you
Happy anniversary 20th to aunty Mag
Unbelievable same day as me
Just only one year younger then me

Happy Nurses Day

Happy Nurses Day on 12 May
I am a nurse
I want to wish all the nurses
Have a great day
You are doing well in your job
Some people might think it will be an easy
Actually is not easy at all
I know all the hard work
Hoping for everyday going well
Is professional job
We will always remember Florence nightingale
She is the lady of lamp
Some day I want to be like her
However God’s will
Dunno when I can be a successful nurse?
Hope my dreams come true

Happy mother’s day

Happy mother’s day on the 11 of May
Wish that all mothers will be happier then ever
I love you mummy
No matter where u are I still love you
I know it very well so much
You love me
Sometimes I didn’t say doesn’t mean I dunt care
Wisher everyday will be happier
Having a wonderful life in the world
To me you’re my everything
I want you to be happy
Don’t worry too much on me
I know all that
Please forgive me if I have hurt u mum
I’m sorry
I didn’t mean want to hurt u
Just that sometimes is the feeling that can’t get it off
I know you want to be a nurse when u r young
However u don’t have the chance
Now is my turn to fulfill your dreams mum
I really love this nursing job
I want to be a missionary
However without anything nothing can be done
Is not the time yet
I want to make you proud mum
I just need to trust the Lord
I love you mum
muaxx

After a bad sick

Why do I have many problems?
Why people think that way
As people grow older
They have more to think about

Why can’t they just live me alone?
All I can do
Just believe in the Lord
Trust in him

Why do I have to care what they think?
Therefore thinking about others 1st
We cannot be selfish
We have to care for each other

Why do I worry about the things which is happening
No matter what I still care for everybody
They just don’t know me well
If they know very well they will understand

I really don’t want to care what is happening now
After this sick I got
I found out that if a person cannot talk
How does it feel?

Ask yourself
Does u try it before?
Is really hard to explain
What u really wants to do?

I have never been so sick before
I also cannot believe myself
Can’t even get the way it is
That show how bad it is

When I was young
I have always ask why this and that
What is I can’t talk or walk?
What my life going to be

However, this time I really understand
Maybe is god’s plan for me
To be me understand what is really life means
No matter what I can only say thank you Lord

In life

In a way of life
Given me a chance again
Why I don’t receive it as it is
Am I worried about it?

How can I do it?
Trust in the Lord,
Always believe in him
Prayer will succeed with true heart

In a way of life
I need to go on with it
I want to be a successful
Do my best for it

How can I do it?
What is my purpose in life?
Can I fulfill it?
Do I have the courage for it?

In a way of life
In heart to be a missionary
I want to be a nurse
Help the sick people

Thank you Lord
I know you are always there for me
I want to serve him
In mind to think clearly

Future Plan

I have thought about my life. I want to continue my studies, however, the problem should I retake my BM or just go for a college to study. Seriously, I don’t want any hospital to sponsor me and give me scholarship. I know is good but thinking about it. I’m afraid it happens again like I’m in Tung Shin. Lord, can I really do it? I have told my leader about it.

Finally, I have told him about it. Why I want to be a nurse is because I want to become a missionary not like those who go any where to tell others about Christ. However, I want to help those who are in problem, sick, nobody care for them and I hope I’m able to pray for them. Slowly, I will tell them about Christ and also listen to their problem to understand what they are thinking. This is my purpose and my dreams. I know God have already done so much in life. That’s why I need to fulfill this dream to serve him with all my heart. He says wow you want to be Florence nightingale. I am doing this for God not for myself.

Oh lord, can I really do this? When can I fulfill it? I plan to study and after that work 1st to pay back the money. After that, I have enough to take care of myself. I want to go and help the poor country. I know is not easy but I am going to do it no matter what. I know the devil wills always trying to take me away from God. There are so many times that I blame God. Now, I just want to say sorry. Sometimes, I just dunno what is right and wrong. Izzit my fault? Maybe is not the time yet. I dunno when the right time is. Therefore, I know what I want to be.

I know being a missionary is not easy. That’s why now I am trying to know more about God. Some people just don’t understand. There are many kind of missionary, mine is as I have said above.

I just want to have a prayer here.
Father Lord, thank you for everything. You are always there for me. I’m so sorry Lord about the things I do is not right. Please be able to forgive me. OH lord, Please show me the way to what it should be done. I just want to leave everything to you. Please tell me when the right time is for me. I have been waiting for it. I have been through so much and I know Lord you will let it be true when I believe in it. Lord, what is my plan for this year? I have plan to join the Christmas this year however I’m working can’t even go practice. It seen my plans are upside down. Lord, please give me an answer for it. I’m so desperate Lord. I leave the rest to u all. Thanks Lord for everything.
In Jesus name Amen.

FEAR GOD

Proverbs 2:2
Tune your ears to wisdom, and concentrate on understanding.

To personally know God, we must know how to fear God. If we don’t know how to fear God then we will keep doing something which is not right such as SIN.

I was upset already that I cannot join Christmas this year. Even audition also cannot go because not every Saturday I can go sometimes I’m working. I really want to put my all for this year. I want to serve the Lord for this year and next year, I really hope I can study a diploma to get a cert and do what I should do. Oh, Lord, what you really want me to do for my life?

That day, actually my friend just become a Christian for about one to two years I think however I know is after SPM only he became a Christian. He thinks that he knows more then me. The problem is if blessing to others is give then to receive but if is god’s words is sure know more about it 1st. why he wants to have fight with me. He doesn’t know how I work as I can say I cannot always go to church. He says must go to church to receive god’s words. However, this job that I work is to serve the Lord. Everything must be slowly and step by step. Yes, is true to go church and receive god’s word. Therefore, does he know that some people go to church just only go to church and go back? If we want to go church is use your heart to praise the Lord and worship him with all our heart. Not just go and back without anything. I have told him that my job not always can go church only when I’m not working I will go. He told to me resign to get a job which can go to church. I really love my job I won’t do this. I have told my self I will do my best for this job.

I have gone through so much. I know that God really want me to be a successful nurse. I really want to go and do missionary to help the sick people and want them to know more about god’s word. What is god’s plan for me? I have take assistant nurse and yet I have fail and I got another chance to Segi College Kuala Lumpur for diploma. Therefore, I have run away cos I don’t like the place. And now, there is a chance for me again. Which is the Columbia Asia wants to sponsor me to studies however I need to take my BM again. Why people just don’t understand me?

FutureLife

What was I thinking? What is my life? What am I going to do about it? What is the problem with me? I have been thinking so much.. What I really want in my life? I can’t stay my whole life as a PCA (Personal care Assistant) no matter what I have been through. I know God is still there for me. I have pray for it and God always answer my prayer. I’m asking God can I really do it, can I really be a staff nurse? Here comes the chance again. At TSH, I have drop out because I have fail then got into Segi College KL drop out again because of my own problem. I cannot handle it. Can I really be a missionary? I was asking my aunty why I wan to go for missionary. I also dunno why I have been asking myself can I really do it. My aunty told me because I love god so much that’s why I want to go for missionary.

The problem now I have to retake my BM, still have to go and take my BM. Cannot run away from it. Looks like I’m trying to run away from problem haiz…

Yesterday I went back to QHC medical centre to take my stuff. I saw Angela, Christina, priya , nithay and eeranee. They all ask me how is my studies, what can I say I just say ok lol. With not all of them will ask me to work there. Good thing, Christina helps me. Is very wrong to lie. I’m so sorry Lord that I have lie. I really don’t want to lie but really no choice.

Segi College… my friends all miss me. They want me to go and visit them. They also say any time also can visit. What to do I don’t have time. Same as TSH. Thanks Lord. At least I know that they are still people appreciate me.

What is my life going to be? Lord I hope I can take the stress. I know I have drop out and God u are giving me a chance to do it. The Columbia Asia wants to sponsor me to study. Is a sign from u rite?

Sorry lord. Forgive my sin. I know that sometimes I really did very wrong. That’s why this year I want to serve u lord with all my heart. I want to commit myself to u. so no matter what I am going to join the Christmas for this year. Lord I hope no changes for me this year. Is enough for it. I don’t want to change plan already just for this year.

Please Lord; help me to feel comfortable in cell group. Recently like I’m having a bad mood doesn’t know why. Izzit the people there should be lol… I seldom go cg and how to be part of cg. Recently only I commit myself in it. They just don’t understand me. No body can understand me is okay. Help me to do what should I do..

WORK

Haizz why everyday also so tired, working life is like tat. However, I enjoy it. Today I meet my old friend was meet in tung shin hospital she is working in the hospital with me now.. is really such a small world. One is my church member another was as I have said.

Today, I meet my boss I dunno what position is she. She wan to send to me to study but I have to retake my BM. She say be a PCA no future. Oh Lord, this time I hope I really can pass through if u really wan to send me.

My mother say sure got a lot of ppl jealous one. Haiz what to do wherever I go also got ppl jealous of me. Tung shin, QHC and now Columbia what ability I have until like tat. Thanks God for it.. thanks muaxx I love u lord tats all I can say now…

Tiring Day

Wow, wat a week? Dunt even have time to write now a days. Was very busy for my job. Today is my third day in Columbia Asia. Isn’t tat great? Well, is a wonderful to work there actually wherever u work is the same is whether u wan to work there a not to be comfortable. Maybe there is time tat is hard for us but we need to know ourselves for it. I pray tat Lord I will work long for this hospital after tat, please Lord send me to study I really need the cert no matter wat… izzit for me Lord the cert can I do it?

When I work in columbia , I meet my old friends isn’t tat great? Im really hapy to know new friends and meet my old friends, there is one friend which is my church member. Church member seldom see each other in hospital because mostly they will work as business department. Not many people wan to study nursing or even work as a nurse.

I wan to be a nurse because I find tat I am suitable to take of the old people when they are in hospital. I wan to show my love for them. Now I’m in a pead ward, I found out the little children also very nice to take care of it. Must know how’s the technique to take care of them.

Recently, I felt tat something different when I went for CG. Wat izzit? I’m so uncomfortable with it. Why Lord? Izzit time for me to go somewhere else already?
Lord please give me an answer….why in the world there is so much problem for us human? Haizzz….

Finally

Oh Lord, finally i decide to open this new blog.
i wan to have a new life here.
forget the past shu hui
trust in the Lord always